NeuroticNarwhal

Summer is here once again, so I may actually get around to post stuff, if I actually find any inspiration. My love life is... extremely complicated, right now. More or less, I don't know what I want, and even if I did, I don't know that I'd can bring myself to trust another person so much right now. Someone has confessed to me, recently, but... there's a history and relationship in play with them that means I view her more as a close friend than a potential partner. I've tried to open myself up to the possibility, but... it's like forcing a puzzle piece into someplace it doesn't belong. It just doesn't feel right. I keep wondering if maybe i

[ ] the dark [x] staying single forever (I'm in a relationship, but still) [ ] being a parent [ ] giving birth [x] being myself in front of others [ ] open spaces [ ] closed spaces [ ] heights [ ] dogs [ ] birds [ ] fish [ ] spiders [ ] flowers or other plants Total so far: 2 [x] being touched (by women, specifically) [ ] fire [ ] deep water [ ] snakes [ ] silk [ ] the ocean [x] failure [ ] success [ ] thunder/lightning [ ] frogs/toads [ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad [ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom [ ] rats [ ] jumping from high places [ ] snow Total so far: 4 [ ] rain [ ] wind [ ] crossing hanging bridge

Classes are going well at university, and I'm actually looking forward to the semester. I just need to stay focused and not procrastinate. Luckily, everyone where I'm going is pretty smart, and there an atmosphere of... academic camaraderie that's very bolstering. I think it was intimidating at first mainly because of not knowing what to expect, but I'm settling into it. I don't seem to have as much free time, now, but in a way I'm glad. Much of my free time was spent wastefully, leading up to the semester, and investing my time into study groups is an entirely different proposition, now that everyone I interact with is amply intelligent. I